Friday, March 20, 2015
Friday, September 19th, 2014
somewhere on the road to recovery - Olathe, KS
"Lord, I don't know what to do, but my eyes are on You. It took a couple of hours to get out of bed this morning, even though I was hungry and knew I needed to take care of myself by eating breakfast and taking my morning meds. I don't want to be too hard on myself and say that I'm failing - the truth is that I'm scared. I'm scared of trying to move back home, of not being ready for work, of falling back into my old ways of being too busy/without margin. [...]
Dad says that I just need to trust now. Yes. How do I keep struggling with the same thing over and over and over again? [...]
Lord, I choose to trust You even in difficult times like this. It seemed so simple to trust You with the surgery. I obviously had not really considered how difficult the recovery could be for me. It almost seems ridiculous to me that I'm struggling so much with recovery. You got me through this summer somehow and through the surgery and through almost 5 weeks of recovery, so why am I freaking out now? You will not drop me now. [...]
Lord, please help me. I want to be able to 'not worry about tomorrow.' But I'm so weak and prone to worry. Michael came by and reminded me to be thankful. So let me choose to praise You, even when I don't feel like it.
Lord, thank You for my family who is putting up with me during this difficult time. Thank You for my brothers who are also my friends. Thank You for all the people who prayed and are praying for me. Thank You for all the encouraging cards and balloons. Thank You for how accommodating Donnelly has been. Thank You for showing Donnelly favor with enrollment this fall. Thank You for the significant progress that I've seen since the surgery. Thank You for the healing work that You are performing in my skull and in my brain. Thank You that Your mercies are new every morning. Thank You for never leaving my side."
Revive this blog [working on it!]
Read at least one book per month (goodreads) [no progress with this]
Do more art [check]
Finish reading Bible (last year I got more than halfway through the ESV) [basically no progress]
Continue learning French and planning for France trip (April 2016!) [haven't worked on this in a while]
Teach ESL [hoping to do this in the summer]
Learn Nepali [Ashish is sending me the Nepali word of the day]
Help my mom launch a blog and youtube channel [I've had a lot of health issues preventing me from spending time with my mom]
Sundays: family, friends, church. No errands, chores, or work. [check-mostly]
Go to Guatemala for mission trip & vacation (October 2015) [planning on it!]
Make new friends [check!]
Learn how to dance [working on this]
Work on personal projects [kind of...]
Go on at least one date (any takers? haha) [check!]
Get involved with Young Latino Professionals and Hispanic Chamber of Commerce [check!]
Exercise at least three times per week [does walking to work count?]
Switch to organic, natural food & other products (makeup, household cleaners, etc.) [check]
Run at least one race this year [planning on the GCI 5K in May...]
Saturday, January 17, 2015
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Monday, January 5, 2015
Some goals (in no particular order):
- Revive this blog
- Read at least one book per month (goodreads)
- Do more art
- Finish reading Bible (last year I got more than halfway through the ESV)
- Continue learning French and planning for France trip (April 2016!)
- Teach ESL
- Learn Nepali
- Help my mom launch a blog and youtube channel
- Sundays: family, friends, church. No errands, chores, or work.
- Go to Guatemala for mission trip & vacation (October 2015)
- Make new friends
- Learn how to dance
- Work on personal projects
- Go on at least one date (any takers? haha)
- Get involved with Young Latino Professionals and Hispanic Chamber of Commerce
- Exercise at least three times per week
- Switch to organic, natural food & other products (makeup, household cleaners, etc.)
- Run at least one race this year
Friday, January 2, 2015
Monday, October 8, 2012
A little over two years ago, I was commuting from JoCo to KCMO everyday for work. Through my job, I had the privilege of getting to know many wonderful Latino families on both sides of the state line. I remember a conversation I had with one Latina mom that would end up becoming a turning point for me. I asked her how long her family had lived in Kansas City. She answered and asked me if I lived in KCK or KCMO...I hesitated before admitting that I lived in JoCo. I could feel a wall begin to form between us. Despite my Mexican heritage and years of studying Spanish, I could not relate to her. We lived in different worlds.
I am a passionate person. If I commit to doing something, I will do it whole-heartedly. I will give every ounce of energy I have to do the best that I can do with the given situation.
I have recently committed to spending 2.5 hours a week with a great group of kids. Just 2.5 hours. During these 2.5 hours, I try to make myself completely available. But when the time is up, I struggle to walk out the door and leave the neighborhood behind.
These kids have my heart and they don't even know it.Within days of writing this, I had coffee with Megan, the director of children's ministry at Mission Adelante, and I shared my heart and some tears with her. She told me about a great place to live and promised she would try to find me a roommate. A few months later, I had moved to KCK with Molly, my new roommate and friend!
Today--just two years later--I live, work, go to church, and volunteer all within a one mile radius. This community is no longer a volunteer opportunity or work assignment. It is my home. These are my people. I may still lead a very different life from that Latina mom, but now I'm just down the street. :)
Sunday, October 7, 2012
- to remain, abide
- in reference to place
- to sojourn, tarry
- not to depart 1a
- to continue to be present 1a
- to be held, kept, continually
- in reference to time
- to continue to be, not to perish, to last, endure 1b
- of persons, to survive, live
- in reference to state or condition
- to remain as one, not to become another or different
- in reference to place
-Andrew Murray, Abide in Christ
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
This quote by Mark Torres, S.J., could sum up the book Tattoos on the Heart. I believe that God has blessed me with a similar opportunity to be involved in the lives of youth who are full of creativity and potential and insight. They usually dismiss my compliments, but I hope that they are allowing truth to take root in their hearts, the truth of who God has created them to be and how He looks upon them with so much affection.
Although I don’t agree with all the theology of the book, I would definitely recommend Tattoos on the Heart. The stories are a testament to the transformative power of God’s love. I laughed and cried through each chapter, and I am challenged by the longevity Gregory Boyle’s commitment to the people of East L.A.
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Several years ago, I spent a summer in Mexico living with my aunt and uncle. I was trying to master the Spanish language and to get to know my Mexican family better. After every meal, my Tío Toño would always say, "Panza llena; corazón contento." This roughly translates to: "full stomach, happy heart." Tonight I realized that it isn't just the eating that makes his heart happy; it's the act of bringing la familia (more than just relatives) together and conviviendo (sharing life).
Tonight, Mission Adelante launched three different house churches. My group had the privilege of meeting in the home of one of the Latina moms who is relatively new in her faith. Her 11 year old son has a sweet and joyful heart and is one of my favorite kids to hang out with at LIT (Leaders in Training, Mission Adelante's after-school program).
This evening, for the first time since that summer I spent with my tío, I tasted the sweetness of what sharing life could look like in my neighborhood, in my life. My senses were awakened; the room was full of laughter, spices, color, and warmth. Everyone who came had a chance to speak and contribute; everyone brought something to the table (literally). We worshipped together and dug into the Word together. I felt alive again. We were doing church, being the church, and it had nothing to do with a program or a building.